Friday, November 21, 2003

Nov 21, it's been a week--a week of real resting! i caught my sleep back ever since i came back home. always sleep at 10:30pm and wakey only around 9:30am the next morning, often without interruptions! Cooooooool!~ =p

and of course, i've been spending much of my time with my loved ones-family and good friends. (chris, how could i have missed u out? u r part of my family! =p) i realised that such time together could never be replaced by other things in life. no matter how much things they may try to provide you with, there is none other more precious gift than time. such time locks together the special memories which could never be digested into the tummy or be thrown away! it's not a material object in which you could use $$ to trade, isn't it? when time spent with a friend lessens, the relationship deepens?? no, i don't think it works otherwise.

somehow, busyness has been our only excuse to procrastinate what we considered as less important things. the most important things in life could be: work, studies, earning money, life in itself? are these all that we are chasing for in life? to establish a good career, score As in school, earn big bucks and enjoy life?? the famous line goes: 'for fun, laughter, peace and joy'?? do these really bring 'fun, laughter, peace and joy'?---this is something to think about! (hmmmm....)

"there she goes! there she goes again!!!"
--the thinker (that's me!!) is starting her provocative thinking again.

Friday, November 14, 2003

Nov 14, yeh! i'm back!!! i'm finally back!!! oh yes!!~ back to this humid, small little island where i call 'my hommmme'!

everything just happened too fast yesterday! it feels like the whole day just flew by in a swift! perhaps i'd been quite last minute in clearing up the final bits off my cupboards and fridge and my clothes. Rush! Rush! Rush! it's hard to imagine in the midst of all those 'rushy' activities, i still spent time doing the garden with Annie! it was just amazing! and hey man! it was a test of arm power! the sickle and shovel were seriously heavy! both Annie and i were just having fun using those tools for the first time in our lives! we looked at each other, bursting into laughter when we saw the 'farmer look' on each other's faces! hahahahaa.

that was not all. the real test of arm power was for me and chris to carry all our luggages to the Manix college to catch the airport shuttle at 3:15pm sharp! man!!!!!~ for those guys who have walked through uni, you would nod your heads with me if i said it's a long journey. i wouldn't have mind the distance if i'd no baggage with me! walking to uni would have just been a piece of cake. =p *wink* owing to my wrong estimation to time, both chris and i had to rush to Manix within 15 minutes. mannnn!!~ my arms were sore by the time i got to Menzies building, which was only half-way through the journey!!! oh man!!! it was already 3:15pm! yikes!! we are late! "i hope that bus doesn't leave until they pick us up" well, thankfully, James came to our rescue! he helped us with a luggage or two and we made it to the shuttle...!!!! phew~~~!

our flight was scheduled at 5:15pm. we got there at 4:00pm and we thought: "great!~ we would have time!" but oh no! mannn! the queue was extremely long and it would take us forever for our turn. well, thankfully we did our check-ins online and we could just jump the queue. and oh yes! clearing through customs was rushy too! and when everything was finally done and we both sat down in the plane, i just said to myself: "oh! what a day!" =p

well, we got the window seat and it was a great view from the plane! as the plane took off from melb, it suddenly dawned on me that i'm leaving this place. a sudden tinge of sadness surged my heart. yet, there was a stronger longing for home as i sat back into my chair. i tried to hold back my sadness by comforting myself that i'm going home. such mixed feelings dwelled in my heart throughout my plane journey.

i could still vividly remember what i considered the most eventful moment: the touch-down. if i had a pen, i would have scribbled down my thoughts right there and then! it feels so wow! and yes! it feels great to be back home again...the city of lights!!! the ships, the sea, the roads, the cars, the buildings reminded me that: hey! we are back in singapore!!!! perhaps i've been in the jungle too long and it feels not the same when i'm out of it!!! =p hee....oh well~and oh yes!!! i'm no longer dreaming! it's real! i'm finally home.

i know this is all real. on reason: i sweat so much man! =p hee, hey...you guys down there in melb! are you guys enjoying 31 degrees? at least you guys don't perspire that much. i'd simply shower every few hours if i'd to! i can't sleeeeeeep! too hot~! oh well, this is singapore! =p the price to pay to be back home.

Monday, November 10, 2003

Nov 10, it's been an eventful 6days! whoa!! the best day i could remember was the get-together at Bayview house! haha, loads and loads of meat dishes...champagne and of course, 2 rounds of Monopoly! well! we had great fun! the 'we' referred to this house of girls pluz Ed, James and Joel. the night ended off with a strong competition in the game of Monopoly!!! Raels and Joel were monopolising the entire stretch of railways and streets with hotels and houses. while James and i tried to secure our territories on the expensive lanes. it was a tough fight! anywayz, Raels and Joel won eventually.....what a game!~ =p and guess what? we finished our game at 1:30am in the morning!? man!!~ time just flies during summer! cool game and great night! =p

and well, to think about it, the Great day is drawing nearer! yeh!! i'm flying back singapore soon!!! both James and i were just imagining how things would be when we get back singapore...what we wana do and stuffs! i just wana really really REST! it sounds as if i couldn't really rest well here...but it's not this....just that i guess it never feels the same like Hommmme! the fragrance in the air just smells different! and of course, not to mention the humidity and temperature too! =p i just wana be back home soon!!!! and yep! it's 3days more to go!!!! and that's it!!~ singapore, here i come! heee.....

Tuesday, November 04, 2003

Oh!! it's Nov 4th liao! it's Melb Cup today and whoh!!! the weather is just Marvellous!!! it's GRRRrreat!! and indeed, very BEEEeeeutiful! after so many days of cold cold and more cold wind and rain, today's 24 degrees! the sun is shining and it's just so GOOD to feel the warmth! i just went crazy just now! threw so much clothes into the washing machine and sunning tubs after tubs of clothes! it's just 'wow!!!' to see the sun!! =p and i feel so comfy in singlet and pants now! it's just Great!

over the weekend, i pondered over the housing issue: where am i going to stay next year? oh where? oh where? to move or not to move??!! it became sucha knotty issue that somehow there seemed to be no solution. i wished i could stay in Bayview Avenue still because i love staying with my housemates and i know i'd miss them alot next year if i were to move out. however, circumstances just forced me to do otherwise. and so, i pondered...still no conclusion. no solution. no idea. for a few days, i thought i was the only one in sucha dilemma....but i was wrong. raels came to me on sunday evening saying, 'hey, c'mon! we are in this together!'. that striked me alot. yes indeed, we will stay together no matter what happens. this is OUR problem; not just yours, or mine. since we stay together, we solve things together. from that moment on, i've begun to see Bayview Ave as not just a place i live in, but also a place where i belong...it's not a place where tenants stay together. it's much more than that. we are a family!

somehow through all these struggles, i really grew up a little more...i have learnt to think a little lesser of myself and help a little more in the house. it's no longer "this is mine and that's yours"; it's more of: i'll help you with whatever i can. throughout the weekend, i noticed the changes:
"hey, i'll toast your bread for you ok?"-Annie
"i got some prunes for you while i was at Coles today"-Jackie
"hey, do you all wana go Boxhill together?"-Raels & Ed

sucha stark contrast from how things were when we started off being housemates in the beginning of this year. there's no common interest, language and lifestyle in this house. i'll try to illustrate the differences: while annie and jackie went on in their "si-va-la" shanghainese, i could only understand the few mandarin words in their sentences. initially, jackie and annie had troubles understanding raels' perfect english! and raels on the other hand couldn't understand those shanghainese girls' mandarin!? to add it up, raels and i speak singrish sometimes and all these, complicates the situation. and so, whenever 4 of us sit down for a conversation, it's just quite difficult to accomodate all our interests.

hee, i'm glad things have loosened up alot over the months...=p i've learnt to understand basic shanghainese. raels has started to join us at the kitchen more often! jackie, annie and i have started going on shopping trips together down to the City....and altogether, we started going out for dinners more often. this feels like home!~ and i like it!

and of cos, by now you would know the obvious answer to my knotty issue: i'm definitely staying!

Friday, October 31, 2003

Oct 31, yeh! it's end of the month today!!! it's friday afternoon 12:30pm. i'm now sitting in Matheson library again. nope, you are wrong! this time, i'm not researching...i'm not studying...let alone, reading any books! i'm here to use the net! i'm not so hardworking as how some people have imagined me to be! =p oh yes! i've been enjoying my holidays this week: not too busy at home....slack alittle and enjoy some moments.

i went to see my HSY tutor yesterday. yes, yet again. she was pretty concerned about how i did my final essay and i frankly told her how hard i struggled through it. i know it's not my best piece of work she would ever be marking cos' i spotted quite a few errors again after looking through it again. sigh~ somehow editing never helps!~ i handed in my 3rd draft of the essay and yet, i can still find mistakes. oh well~ shall see how things go. my tutor asked me about my plans for next year and of cos', since i've been slacking so much this week, i have yet to consider what subjects to enrol for next semester. she urged me to consider doing history Hons and told me the potentials she has seen in me. hmm~ well well....i don't know. she looked through with me the possible history modules that i could consider taking next year....guess i'll have to make up my mind soon as the enrolment for next yr's subjects ends the following monday. hmm, HSY Hons--something to think about! should i???

Thursday, October 30, 2003

Oct 30, oh! it's thursday today!! i've got 14days more before i see my bf!!! and of cos, to fly back singapore! aw~ i've been waiting for this day for so long....2 months has finally turned 2 weeks! well, it's great to receive liumin's card yesterday. when she asked for my address over icq, it didn't really clicked that she was sending me a card! indeed, liumin--hey, you are ever the first one to send a card over all the way from singapore!! when i saw 'Gracie' written in huge red letters, i knew from the very start, it's liumin!!!!! man!! even opening the envelope was exciting!! your handwriting, especially your lettering on the envelope of the card has really made me miss you alot! and man!! even the singapore stamp on your envelope has made it so homely!!!! this card really brightened my life alot this week! it's really a surprise for me! =p

Wednesday, October 29, 2003

Oct 29 still, i came back from uni with Raels in Ed's car...how cool is that! yeah, the weather has been weird today! very very cold...with occasional showers and sunshine intermittenly...that's melbourne's weather! when i got off Ed's car, Raels spotted this rusty key with a footprint keychain lying at a corner of the car wheels. judging from its appearance, this key had undergone much rain and shine for a long while. as we looked more closely, it dawned on me it's mine!!! i'd lost this key many months ago and i could never find it! aww~ so sad! this key chain held a great significance to me...can't part with it but i know i had to.....once lost, now found!